Lately i have been experiencing some cronic pain. It has led to some unexpected results. The first result is how distracting it has been to my ability to think. Limited mobility and fatigue one might expect, but my ability to reason and make sesible decisions has been unexpected. I have made so many decisions that were focused solely on immediate comfort rather than purpose. I claim my purpose is for Christ and want it to be so desparately. It is only now as am starting to get removed from that pain that i realise just how limiting it was to my ability to think and reason and follow my said purpose. Such a distraction.
Which leads me to the thought of the way other kinds of pain has a tendancy to limit us all. The desire to get relief in crisis is a strong one’.
James 1:2-3 says
“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
I did not cosider my latest experience “pure joy” yet i am asked by this passage to consider it so. There are others passages in the bible that are similar. If this was a test of my faith then i would have to say that i have failed. So focused on relief and not on my purpose for being. If i claim to be a christian ( and i do) my purpose should be on glorifying God no matter what my situation. Not just trying to endure and complaining along the way. In light of passages like
2 Corintians 12:
“That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong”
I did not “delight” and probably missed opportuities because i was searching for “relief” a missed opportunity to allow God to work through me as my reliance would have to be so much more on him than on me.
This is not to say that i consider my faith shipwercked but it does help me understand the imortance of encoragement. Sometimes a brothers pain is not so much the obvious but can be more subtle. Life experiences like the loss of a close family member, the pain of growing up with an absent father, a divorce.